Question: I find that, which are everything in the society, is an action of the conditioning and all those conditioning are based on some spiritualism or some morality and all those things. After watching all your videos, the light came to me and I could understand that what is happening. After that, I started rejecting everything. Wherever I went, I told people these are false things; I don’t want to do. I am not coming.
Whenever my friends called me, I told I am not coming. Then, finally I felt that each and everything has a reason. Without any reason, we don’t move to any place. So just sitting like that and doing nothing; even then, thoughts of past and future and all kinds of things that are suffering in the memory, is always haunting. Even though I am not much affected by those things now, but I cannot get rid of that. I cannot just be like thoughtless, something comes to my mind, I feel like watching some video of yours; that gives me a good feel.
Acharya Prashant: See, when you are being called by the Truth, you must always remember that there will be something deep within you which will resist the change – be cautious of that. One way to resist the change is to allow superficial change.
Let’s take an example.
You are saying when your friends call, then you say, “No, these things are false.” How are they still able to call you? We want to change the doing and maintain the doer! We want to modify the friendship, yet remain the person who was friends’. How can you be the same person, your erstwhile friends feel free to call? If you are really transforming, then they would either transform along with you, or they would simply go away. But this kind of a situation, where you manage your old friend circle, where you retain your old friend circle and you want them to understand your new position; is just an attempt at a compromise.
You see, we have people here. Like Devesh Ji. He has a certain friend circle. Now he has chanced upon something new. Now he wants to also parallelly retain the old. So he seeks out a way, a compromise. He says, “I will try to take this new to the old while maintaining my old relationships with them.” So he tries bringing people along with him here. Is that not what you are trying to do?
You are trying to relate to those same old people in a new way, in a different way.
Listener 1: No, I think I was not able to give a proper impression to you regarding my question. I didn’t mention that. I know very well what they are doing and I am not interested.
A.P: You are interested. You see, even in this question, what are you talking about? Your friends. You are interested. Have you dropped them?
L1: No, they have stopped calling me.
A.P: The question is, are you not carrying them with you into this room? Here we are talking. You have come from such a long distance to meet me. And what are you talking about? So have you not brought them along with you here? So where is the question of dropping? First of all, acknowledge that while you are trying to come close to me, still you are carrying the old baggage and you are coming to me and mentioning that. Had that been dropped, how could you have talked about it? That would have become so unimportant. But that is still important to you.
So you still bring your old baggage and what happens to that?
Once you bring your old baggage, it does not want to return. Now you are suffering from a conflict. That old baggage will remain old. It does not want to come. Sometimes, they even come and go back from here. They give their numbers and they give such original and delightful replies when you call them. This is just your attempt at getting the new and yet, maintaining the old.
With the new, the old would either turn into the new or will have to go away. And if it is not turning into the new, then it will keep you too, old.
Please understand this.
You are moving towards the new and now there can be no carrying of the old. Either the old will change along with you, or it will prevent you from changing. So you too, will remain a captive of the past and you will keep suffering. Nobody suffers more than somebody who is in this position. The Truth is calling; yet you are not prepared to give up the past—and the past is not coming along with you to the Truth. Now you are suffering. And, one suffers very badly in this situation.
Please be smart enough!
See that this is an impossible situation. And first of all, acknowledge the problem is not with your friends, but with you. The time will come when it has to come. But you cannot decide that. If you want to remain filled, then you will find ways out to remain filled.
The ways would be:
a) Connect to the old in a new avatar. But they will not talk to you. They know somebody else. And they will demand that you remain the old one. How dare you transform?
b) If you lose them, then you will try to fill the mind with something else.That something else would be something of the past.
Excerpts from a ‘Shabd-Yoga’ session. Edited for clarity.
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