Drum sound rises on the air, its throb, my heart.
A voice inside the beat says,
“I know you’re tired, but come. This is the way.”
~ Rumi, The essentials of Rumi
Speaker: “I know you’re tired, but come. This is the way.” Apaar is saying, “After reading Rumi, a fear is rising. What if the way too is tiring? Then?”
When did Rumi assure you that the way is not tiring? In fact, all that Rumi is saying is, “You are already tired. That much is known.” You are prone, susceptible, vulnerable to tiredness. It is well-known. And somebody who is already tired is being invited to walk away. For sure, he will get only more tiredness. So there is no uncertainty.
You are asking, “What if the way too is tiring?” There is no doubt. Why are you feeling fifty-fifty? It is hundred percent certain, that only more tiredness is going to be there, only more tiredness. Rumi is honest. He won’t hide these things. He is saying, “It is tiring, obviously.”
But something more important than your weariness, your fatigue, something more compelling than your tiredness, would pull you. That thing has come in the shape of Rumi, for now. And that’s the whole beauty of it. Not tired, anybody would like to have a stroll. It is pleasurable. “I am not tired, and just have had dinner. Let’s go for a night walk.” There is nothing in that walk.
But it becomes special when you are tired, and you have no reason to walk, yet you find yourself running. And you are not deceiving yourself; you are not hiding it from yourself that you are tired. “Yes, obviously I am tired. But there is something more important than this. I have to run.”
What is more important than this? Well, if there were a reason to walk, there could be a bigger reason to not to walk. Every reason can be defeated by a bigger reason, because reason always has its limits and boundaries. So whatever is done for a reason, can never be immense. It would always be petty. One reason would compel you to do something, another reason would come in your way, and tell you to not to do it.